Friday, August 25, 2006

Insomnia

It's almost 3am and I can't sleep. Why is that so? The exams are finally over for semester 9 and the results will be out in the morning. Is that the reason? The whole day I've been hearing the woes and anxiety of my friends about the OSCE. They are worried about getting into viva. I'm worried for them too. Most of the time I told them not to think about it but obviously it's difficult. I know how they feel. I've been through it. The waiting is horrible and mind eating. I can't really comfort them coz I know no matter what I say, they will still be thinking and worry over it. All I can say is pray for the best for them, try to take their mind off it. I really want all of them to pull through.
Decided to listen to some music and this song by Jewel was playing:

I say to myself
Self, why are you awake again? It's one a.m.
Standing with the fridge door wide open, staring
Such a sight, florescent light
The stars are bright
Might make a wish, if I believed in that shit but
As it is, I might watch TV
Cause it's nice to see people more messed up than me
I say to myself, as I smile at the wall, let myself fall

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be alright, cause I'm alright with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gotta be

It's just the first verse and I really want to believe it'll be a good day for everybody in semester 9. Let us all pray.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Stressful Dinner

How can a dinner be stressful? It's food!! It's suppose to be an indulgence and heaven for some people. Allow me to explain myself. A few days ago, my friend invited me to an introduction dinner. I was like what the heck is an introduction dinner? Apparently it's for introducing new members of a prestigious club. I'm amazed they have to do it so formally. Man!! Anyway, I was really honoured that I was invited. However, I wasn't prepared for what was ahead of me.
So, firstly cocktail. It's like a session of small talk with the people around you. Who the heck am I gonna talk to if I don't know a soul? I just politely listened to my friend's mum conversation with some of her friends. I feel so out of place. Oh, did I forget to mention that I had to wear a dress!! Yes, a dress... on me... I hate wearing dresses! Argh! Moving along, dinner started with speeches, bla bla bla. The dinner are like those I've seen on tv. Your own waiter behind you to serve your food and all. More wine miss? Stress! And they serve dishes one by one, appetizer first, soup, main course and dessert. Ok, the stressful part was looking at my plate and their utensils around it.

Panic!! Which one to use? What to do la? Never been to this kinda FORMAL dinner before. Even wedding dinners are not so formal! If they were labeled like the picture above, I wouldn't be so panic-ky. So, I spied on my friend sitting next to me. Then to double check, spied on my friend's dad next to me. Oh, that one ah! Ok then, follow the leader. Phew! Passed that one. Next was easy, soup, seen a soup spoon before so, no problemo amigo. The rest was pretty easy peasy. The only thing was small talk with people around me. Stress! I'm sooooo not used to proper english conversation. Dude, there was no las, mas, ahs in my sentences! You would have been proud! But man, it was really an effort not to add those extra words! At least her dad was trying to ease me up a bit. hehe And her mum kept asking me if I was alright. Man.. Stress!! It was an experience! Once is enough for me, thank you very much! I would avoid it if I could. Phew!!
Anyway, met quite a few big shots there. Even met the Miss Malaysia who represented us for Miss Universe 2005. Ok la, pretty la. Met her hubby. Nothing to comment. Others were like people who owns or are the head of some company. Ok la, whatever la. No one around my age also... hehe If not can cuci mata! hahaha Too bad!
Anyway, eating should be joyful, not so uptight! Maybe I'm just not use this kinda dinner. But still........ Happy event people... HAPPY EATING!