Sweaty hands, palpitations, dizziness, fake forced smile, no appetite, sleepless nights, no mood to have conversations.....
What am I feeling? Why am I feeling this way? It's freaking me out...
Ten days.. Only ten days to get everything together, to make sense of everything, 7 major postings and 4 minor postings to cover, to cramp 4 years of knowledge and clinical skills, to make it as smooth and profesionally as I can.. Will I make it?
The waiting is torturing.. 10am all of us waiting in the cafeteria.. The distinction viva list first.. "oh no.." Next, the borderline viva.. everyone praying and hoping it's not them.. One fella.. Ok, the results will be released at 12pm.. "What? More torture?! Nooooooo"
Silent lunch.. All lost in thoughts.. There's a rumour going around.. 2 ppl failed.. Damn! What if?What if?
12pm.. Book prize first then results.. Ahhh! Increase in heart rate, respiratory rate, dilated pupils, sweaty hands, tremors... Ok, got the white paper slip, my name - check! my ID number - check! ok, here goes nothing...
"....pleased........passed" wait wait reread ".....pleased......passed" REALLY?? REREAD "....PLEASED......PASSED"
Yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! happy happy happy jumping up jumping down dancing around beaming!! YES! YES! YES! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!
So relieved.. so so so relieved! Now CNY would be a blast!
What am I feeling? Why am I feeling this way? It's freaking me out...
Ten days.. Only ten days to get everything together, to make sense of everything, 7 major postings and 4 minor postings to cover, to cramp 4 years of knowledge and clinical skills, to make it as smooth and profesionally as I can.. Will I make it?
The waiting is torturing.. 10am all of us waiting in the cafeteria.. The distinction viva list first.. "oh no.." Next, the borderline viva.. everyone praying and hoping it's not them.. One fella.. Ok, the results will be released at 12pm.. "What? More torture?! Nooooooo"
Silent lunch.. All lost in thoughts.. There's a rumour going around.. 2 ppl failed.. Damn! What if?What if?
12pm.. Book prize first then results.. Ahhh! Increase in heart rate, respiratory rate, dilated pupils, sweaty hands, tremors... Ok, got the white paper slip, my name - check! my ID number - check! ok, here goes nothing...
"....pleased........passed" wait wait reread ".....pleased......passed" REALLY?? REREAD "....PLEASED......PASSED"
Yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! happy happy happy jumping up jumping down dancing around beaming!! YES! YES! YES! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!
So relieved.. so so so relieved! Now CNY would be a blast!
